Tuesday, March 3, 2015

When Things Get Scary

One of the seniors at work gave a bad, bad news today. Not as bad as me getting unemployed, but not a lot far from that.

It looks like a joke at the moment. Or I might be trying to convince myself that it is a joke.

This current experience is proving great for my personal growth. Someone once said live every day as if it is your last. This saying has a new meaning for me from now on.

This also reminds me to not expect too much and to never take anything for granted in life. I need more of such reminders.

Many times in life, the fun is in not knowing. This is different, but feels fun at the same time.

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Changing By The Minute

It would seem that a person's thoughts, views, opinions etc. are constant. At least this is what I thought.

Turns out, I myself am an exception to this.

Other than a few big things like love for humanity, patriotism, respect for my parents etc., all other things change to almost diametrically opposite stands for me. The funny part is, there is no way I can prove my love for humanity, patriotism, respect for parents to myself. So these might just be speculations in my mind.

I have noticed that whenever I expose myself to some new idea, I either pursue it to death, or I hate it. Then, in some time, a week, a couple of months, or until a friend makes me do the opposite ... yes, you guessed it right.

Seeing such inconsistencies in myself is amusing and confusing at the same time. Amusing because it does not matter a lot in the grand scheme of things. My attitude towards certain kinds of food, exercise, work related stuff etc. does not really matter. I (now) know it will definitely change. But it is very confusing because sometimes you have to invest yourself in terms of time or effort or both to one side. Additionally, I always try to be consistent, and this aspect of myself makes me feel like an idiot.

There is always the looming fear of losing some great opportunity just because my silly mind is turned to some other thing at a certain moment in time. But there is also the fear of pouncing too soon on something not worth pouncing at all.

There was a time I wrote really long blog posts. Then I got to really short posts, and now I just write whatever I want. I have used a lot of commas and et-ceteras in this post, and there was a time I hated both. I knew I would not be able to write a lot, and that is why I named the blog "More Not Than Often". But the only reason I am writing this post is because a friend prompted me to. Love you Arpit, but don't know for how long :-)

How often do you feel that you were an idiot some time back?

Monday, January 26, 2015

Newbie Forever

With being an adult comes maturity and responsibility. Or so the world would have us believe. Whatever. This maturity, responsibility, etc. means we cannot enjoy life as much as we used to as children.

I have noticed that always learning something new keeps my mind fresh. At least at a state-of-mind level. 

It keeps on the childhood independence to make mistakes without worrying about the consequences. More importantly, this state of mind goes on to other, mature aspects of my life. Or so I believe.

Seeing others do things better than myself keeps me grounded. These include music by Rob-Ccomics by Rahul, poetry by Geo and Patt, and insightful stories by Kanthu. I can only dream of doing these things that well.

New hobbies, learning new skills, meeting new people, the more we manage to stay newbies, the more we stay young in our minds.

Sunday, January 18, 2015

A little motivation

A little motivation goes a long way.

There was this thing that my brother wanted me to do on the computer. I was stalling of course, finding excuses every time he asked me about it. Then I told him I could not do it. Somehow I started believing that as well.

We were meeting with a friend, and my brother brought up the topic. This friend is great with computers. He simply told my brother that I was fully capable of doing that thing, and that I was just a bit lazy.

Reaching home, I switched on the computer and tried doing that thing. And  I did it.

If it was not for this friend's belief in my ability, I could not have done it. In other words, if it was not for this friend's surety of my laziness, I would not have done it.

This motivation thing is a bit confusing. Many times people seem to be motivating us, but actually have hidden motives. A little judgement is required as well :-)

The question now is, how do I motivate my brother to get along with computers?

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Starting with the present

I have always worried about the future or over-analysed the past.

As a child, I used to wonder when I would be a year older. Or about what I would do once I grew up. While playing video games, often the main motivation to play a level was NOT to enjoy it, but to see what the next level had to offer.

As I grow up, I am finding that life is not simple. At least not simple enough to comprehend.

So from now on, the priority is to enjoy the present moment. That, and a little focus on improving myself and my situation for the not-too-far future.

Let us see what happens :-)